Change

Things are gonna change, starting with my new layout!! secondly with the fact that ive not seen James all day-im still alive, we are independant people and do not need each other permeanatly.

Thirdly ive done lots of work today, which is good...considering iut was due in at 2pm and ive got an extension till tomorrow-however im in Art at 9 and English at 11, meaning i probably wont havr time to do it tomorrow!!

Fourthly, ive booked a drs appt for weds morning-im gonna see about getting my meds upped, so i can be a bit more stable whilst working on my new list of changes!!

Fifthly im gonna healthier and happier!! i had a smoothie with my tea-im aiming to have one day :) so thats a good start!!

Sixthly i sent a msg today that needed sending, i should havw done it in person...but right now, msg form will have to do-lets hope things move on in a more positive manner relating to it!!

Seventhly-back to work and an early night for an early morning. xxx

why?

do human beings have this inbuilt abilty to disapoint?

are they programmed to be complete mess ups?

sometimes i despiar with mankind!!

we r a complete screw up of a race, we should all be shot!!

god-whatever your playing at-stop peeing about and make things work the right way!!

busy beeeeeeeeeeeee

today i got up at 9, and went for breakfast with emily, neil and adam-i had fried eggs n toast-super yummy :) :)

then i had an interview at half 10 at the su office-will hear end of month, beginning of march!!

i have checked my post-zilch :(

filled in a maintenance form for the microwave-it leaks

filled out and posted my specials form

collected my free yoghurts from the spar

got some work back and looked through it :)

booked a post needs assesment review for 2 *no idea what it is but il let u no afterwards*

taken out the recycling-glass/plastic/card/tins & cans

put my washing in

organised my kitchen cupboard

washed my pots

emptied my bin

-so i feel very accomplished...but ive still not done any work!!

im at threshers 5-10.30 n then off to the bar for heaven & hell £1 a pint :) :)

im missing james, but only a few more days n then he'l be back

helen is coming on weds and i cannot wait!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

right now im gonna go put my washin in the dryer n then go to my appt thingy

wow

isnt it amazing how the best laid plans fall apart?

how u can end up hurting people when u tried specifically not too?
how can a person be so selfish n not be aware of it...?

me n sparman are no longer together

i love james

i feel awful right now, but no ive done the right thing

valentines day

hope everyone had a nice valentines day...i got lucky :)

from james i got:a teddy bear that says hug me & was holdin a choc bar
-a little cake
-6 roses
-and a card obv

from sparman i got:a mini teddy
-11 roses & a fake one-cos it will never die...and i love flowers!!
- a box of cadbury flake chocs
- and a card

i did well, my room now smells beautfiully of flowers :) i love flowers-their awesome!!

im off now to a worship service n then round to emilys to cheer her up :) we're gonna watch films!!

xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Ahoy me hearties

we took the children to the library this afternoon and we had stories and songs and made pirate hats!! *Arrrr* spar man just asked what i was doin this evening n if i wud let him cook for me again...i said no but id go up for pudding :P am having tea at uni cos its a good social thing!! :) then its £1 a pint night @ the bar so that will b good-although i cant be out late as il b shattered!!

c u later

i went on a date yesterday!!!!!!!!!

its now 6.52 sat morning and im out of bed and relatively alive...i cudnt sleep so decided why cudnt i jst get up...regardless of the hour...so i did and i have!!

im jst about to wash my pots

ive jst updated my livejournal

james is a smelly boy

i love my uni room

i still havent found a house for next year but the uni list comes out at easter

my sister is amazing...her dinosaurs also :P i love herrrrrrrrrrr

i love u all xxxxxx

i have a chest infection and a pulled shoulder...however

Im going on a date tonight...so its ok :) lolz

the weather today is gorgeously sunny, ive jst had crumpets with jam on, and am taking a break from excavating dinosaurs!! fun times :) ive only got 4 more days of placement to go :( its sad, i am enjoying it, even tho ive had 3 days off this week because of silly illness *icky urgh* this weekend i might actually do the work ive been meaning to do for the past fortnight!!

the one and only wonderful helen is coming up to visit me during half term which is gonna b awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yay :) :) :) :) :) :) anyway il update more & proper later i promise!!